fellas,
   tell your lady she's the one
and ladies
   let him know he's got your love

look right in their eyes and tell them.

other people want my attention, my loving, my time, but i chose not to give it away to anybody but you. you got my love, please don't take it for granted.

i see everybody else's relationships that are lasting, are strong, and beautiful... and i wonder, that used to be us... what the hell happened?

anyways, i like studying. lolxx. infact, back to studying i go.

-M-

mood: rejected

i really don't appreciate it when you guys lie to me.  what is wrong with you? though i've lost some friends because i've told them the truth, at least I'VE SAID THE TRUTH. after that, it's up to you to want to keep our friendship or not, i am not ashame of my life and what i do with it. if you're so ashame of it, SAY IT, don't lie or hide your feelings.. please. i'm not afraid of what you have to say.

dont you guys get it? FRIENDSHIPS ARE BUILT WITH TRUST, NOT DECEIT. if we don't have that, then we never will.

"you love, you learn, you move on..."

prime is a good movie...

it made me soooo sad =( =( =( sometimes love ISN'T enough. infact... it isn't.

so i had a talk with teetee yesterday nite. i told her that the people who means the most to me are not only hurting me, but themselves with the things that they do. u guys don't know how much i cry, how many countless nights that i breakdown while i sleep. you know how sad that is? just typing this, for you all to see brings me like... shooting pains in my stomach cause i hate the way everything is just falling apart for my love ones....

for "him". (i hope he reads this) God knows i love him so much and how much i hate seeing him suffer. its hard to hear and find out about such horrible things in his life. it really makes me just want to drop whatever i'm doing and go to him. but i know he doesn't want or need me there so i keep my distance. i think i'm actually gonna have the courage to move on, i gotta. it's hurting too much to hold on to something that isn't there. i hope, i pray that his life gets better and he'll be happy again someday. i don't even care if we'll ever be together again, i just want him to have a good life. i may love another person but i'll never love them the way i loved him.

-M-

edit on the 26th

my week:

monday:: school, hollywood with TeeTee<3

tuesday:: school till 7pm =(

wednesday:: school, work, then maybe dinner with Henry G<3

thursday:: school till 7 (double =( hah cuz its so looong!), out for dinner with my girlies

friday:: work =) i get to dress up for work lolxx, jon's costume party @usc

saturday:: family time, aidan time<3<3<3, errands, PLAY TIME with a cop, and a dominatrix (clubbin' at century!) lolxx<3<3<3

sunday:: work @ 3 till 8pm. thank gosh!! i can sleep in the mornin =]

i hope u all have a good halloween my dears!!! be safe and be sexy! heh....

life isn't fun when you're on hold in someone's else life.

so many things are confused in my head...i don't know what to think anymore.. i don't know what to believe, who to trust, how to move on from certain people. i thought i had it all figured out. i thought my heart knew what it wanted, who it wanted. but daaamn, now im just c o n f u s e d!!

-M-

mood: cheerful

THIS IS TEE UPDATIN' HER JOURNAL,

ME AND HER LOVE COOKIES SOO MUCH, WE'VE BEEN BAKIN COOKIES LIKE EVERY OTHER DAY TOGETHER. SIGHS.....

MAY IS AWESOME, SHE CALLED ME ON OCT. 22 AT 12:15A.M....AND I WAS THINKIN' SHE BE CALLIN' TO SAY HAPPY BIRTHDAY BUT INSTEAD SHE ASK ME FOR DIRECTION... GREAT BEST FRIEND SHE IS AINT' SHE....=pppP LOLS

I HEART YOU BITCH!

YAY! COOKIES!>..